Well another Thanksgiving and of course I am so grateful for what I have but of course nothing goes as planned. No matter the occasion there is always some disappointment. Thats ok because someones opinion of me is their business and I know the truth so let them continue believing what they want to believe.  It is odd though how comments are made but the accusations can’t be founded.  I’m so done with all the bullshit I will live my life joyfully and yes joyfully because I won’t stay miserable for you to feel like I deserve it. I am just so grateful for this platform I made to write and the more I continue hearing from negative people it just empowers me to write more and it solidifies what I am doing is right. 


The brokenness of some can never be repaired and I need to stop putting it all on my shoulders. It’s not my job to fix people or continue to try to put myself to only be slammed down. I have to take care of myself mentally and physically. The more one draws to God is when the obstacles just seems to get worse.  I am so tired God I am just so tired. 


With that being said Thanksgiving came and went and I realize more and more how great God is and how he holds me tighter when I need it and allows me to make my mistakes and is always there to catch me. This trip has been an adventure in some ways expected in others not what I expected but as I take this journey I realize that I am not alone and all of us have some type of issue or pain that can block us from moving forward but this bitch from New York is moving forward and no longer looking back.  I am me and that is how God made me. I will not change to to make you feel better and look better.  On that note lets pack up and hit the road again to the next adventure.  We will see where the next stop is and the lessons learned.  Only God knows and I will follow and trust you Lord.  

As I think of Thanksgiving more and more I actually get angry but not mean angry angry that I just cry. Why? Why? Is it this way. I so miss my Thanksgiving with my kids and why did he have to destroy that? 
The pain begins in 2014 when I decided I was done being married to a pathological liar.  Now don’t get me wrong he Was an amazing father and provider and Was a good man but he was just a liar.  No-one saw this obviously and why would I ever tell anyone because I had to show everyone I had the perfect life but inside closed doors he didn’t know how to tell the truth.  He would always make excuses for all the little white lies and that was the problem they were always little white lies so if I did tell anyone who would care.  He wasn’t cheating, he wasn’t physically hurting me, he was good provider, he was a fantastic father totally dedicated to his children so who cares he lies about little things.
I think after 20 years I just got used to the lies. I would always say one day I’m going to get a book and keep track of all those lies but I would tell myself no he won’t lie again. Well I should have known because from our very first date he told white lies and I ignored the signs and when I realized I was making the biggest mistake was the night before our wedding when I cried myself to sleep begging God to stop the marriage because how could I stop this wedding and disappoint everyone there and embarrass myself. So I went on and married him and there began my 20 year start of crying myself to bed many nights and no one knowing the misery I was in. Well actually that is not 100% accurate I did confide in my dad (youth pastor) and he knew the pain I was in but I would always say I can handle it. The kids are the most important I can’t leave him. Wow if I only knew then what I know now I would still have relationships with all my kids instead of waiting till they were older and allowed him to destroy my family. 
I think the worst part in all this is the betrayal as well from my immediate family and how everyone just turned their back on me without knowing the facts or at the least not caring enough to find out the facts. 
To find out after spending thousands in court that some members of my immediate family knew his intent to take my children to another state prior was just another gut punch.  One week after they left North Carolina I find out my so-called family was on the beach celebrating with him. Actually if you look back on my life it really shouldn’t have come as a shock. These were the people who wanted to see and believe what they saw and didn’t care to reach out and help.  Well you know it is in the past. What is done is done and I realized after that some people are put in your life to be a lesson and that’s what happened.  I drew closer to God because he was all I had and I had no choice or I would be dead. God is my provider, my savior and my best friend. He will never leave me even when you have no one else. My cries where no longer the same but actual painful cries that I did not think I would survive but I did. So on that note I will leave this here and my next post will be a happy one. My baby boy will be home for Thanksgiving. I ask you all pray that I take the 5 days given to me slowly and enjoy it without thinking of him leaving again. I just want to hold and kiss my baby boy.  Have a great week. 

Its only 10 pm here but we’ve been in bed since 7:30 because today was flea market day.  We had a great day in sales actually best in a while but I just can’t sleep. I guess I have so much on my mind and it just won’t rest till I write this evening.  I am so excited because in another day my son will be visiting with his girlfriend for Thanksgiving.  I  didn’t say anything sooner because I expected it to not happen and now it really is happening. I haven’t seen my son in about 1 1/2 years and I try to not to get my hopes up because of all the disappointments I have had.  I am Thankful for a wonderful husband who always supports me and is always there for me on my rough days. The days I lay in bed and still have the memories of all the pain I’ve encountered especially the ones in the last six years, Well enough about that I am so Thankful that I get to see my son this week and I have lots of great things scheduled.  You see the gifts I gave my children started when they were young. Instead of actual things I get my children trips to places and in their stockings would be tickets to events when we would travel. We spent many Christmases in Gatlinburg, Tennessee those were some of my favorite memories with all my children. So this Thanksgiving I gave my son an early 21st birthday and Christmas gift by flying him out to Tennessee but this year is Nashville. 

I remember the Thanksgiving we had when we went around the table and said what we were Thankful for but those days are long gone. I can be Thankful if I get a call once or twice a year now. 

You would think that a parent would not make the mistakes of her past but it happens all the time. You try so hard to be different and make better decisions but you end up making them worse. Only God knows my heart and I am so grateful that he has never left me.  One of my favorite songs and I do have many is Truth be told and in it is says how everybody’s life is perfect except yours and that is so true. That is such a lie no ones life is perfect but we look at the outside and see what they portray and we don’t care about what is really going on. We don’t care about the truth. We don’t want to be bothered with anyone else’s yuck we have our own. My prayer since I started this journey of adventure is for God to show me what he wants to show me and use me for him and for me to take the time and actually listen to others and see their pain and not judge them because the way they live isn’t the way I would live because who  am I ? I have done and said things that are totally wrong I have made huge mistakes in my life and I am no better than the next person.  My biggest obstacle is that I have always really cared but my mannerisms and attitude have seemed different to many. I have always had this tough exterior and that is being born and raised in Brooklyn, NY but I haven’t totally learned to show in my facial expressions my true heart which God has always known. So I pray that God helps me in that area and helps me show empathy on the outside if that makes any sense to anyone. I know it won’t sound right too many but in this writing God also knows what I mean.  This writing and this adventure in my life this year is really for me and I don’t know what tomorrow holds but I do know I am a child of God and he will direct my steps.  I’m not sure what I will write about next but I do know God will keep me up till I write so I will be obedient.  In Gods timing the whole story will be shared but we will see where God leads next. 

We made it! We’ve been here four days and I love this place. IF I didn’t have a home and business being built in North Carolina. Tennessee would definitely be my next spot to live.  The people here are just as nice as home and the things to do here is crazy. We are here during the Country Music Awards and Nashville was hopping as usual on a Tuesday night. We went into many different bars to listen to the music which was fantastic.  I was so excited.  Something interesting though I realized is all the bars have a band performing at the same time and then they all switch at the same time. It is pretty awesome. Very well thought out. 
Our favorite bar which had great performers that night was Kid Rock’s Big Ass Honky Tonk and Rock and Roll Steakhouse. Robert and I shared a 14 oz. New York Strip and a loaded baked potato. It was really good. The performers which I forgot to get their name was fantastic as well.  If you are following us on fb at walkersrvadventures or Instagram at walkersrvadventure you will see video of the performances.  So please follow us. After leaving Kid Rock I was still hungry. What a shocker for those who know me. So we walked down the other side of the street and checked out other bars. We then went pass a restaurant called 12/30 who we found out later by our Lyft driver that it is owned by Justin Timberlake and recently opened.  We sat at the bar at 12/30 and listened to two great performers while we Shared a burger and fries. I have to say the burger taste really well but it was pretty disappointed because it had no toppings and I didn't realize you had to ask for that but we ate it and enjoyed it. The time change here is crazy and at 4:45 it gets so dark here. We felt like we had been out all night and it was only about 8:30.  We then decided to call it a night and called our Lyft because Uber was not working in the area. 
The Lyft driver was very knowledgeable and gave us a list of great places to go for breakfast and also places to visit. 
We have also gone picking while we are here in Tennessee looking for items to sell in our thrift store and sell on the road at the flea markets. We have found some great finds and the best part was Robert and I are so enjoying finding these deals together and just enjoying spending time together. This is so much fun. I just have to tell you. One of our lucky deals was found at Momma’s Place Antiques and a Pickers Mall located in Goodlettsville, Tennessee.
 I do have to make an honorable mention as well. We purchased items from an online auction that was back home in Selma, NC and Robert really wanted some of these items and we asked someone in town if they would be willing to pick up the items for us and deliver it to our store for us and I just have to give the biggest Thank You to Ron Hester for helping us out and picking up our winnings.  You have no idea how much we appreciate you and what you have done.  As promised we owe you a Great dinner. As for all you Walker’s Treasure Box Fans we have some amazing new products to show you in January.  We are pretty excited. 
So we now have our Saturday and Sundays plans ready for Tennessee we found a flea market in Tennessee that we will be setting up at. We will be at HWY 41 Flea Market in Springfield, TN so come on out and see us. 
Oh before I forget. Our car engine light is nothing too serious. We were told we are ok to drive it and I have to do a shout out to Town and Country Ford Nashville service advisor Marie Blank who took our vehicle in and was honest. I have always been hesitant about taking my vehicle to a dealership for service but this dealership was fantastic and if I need to take another vehicle in I would definitely.  I highly recommend Marie Blank and her professionalism was amazing. 
Well more to share later but we are going picking. See you all later and find your passion!

Woohoo!! On our way to Tennessee we hit the road and our first stop this day is Ikea in Charlotte,NC we arrive and pick up several things for storage in the pantry and refrigerator. We wanted to find something for Robert to put his clothes in but everything we needed was Out of Stock. It is so crazy Ikea is another business hit with no inventory at this time. We ate veggie balls and plant based meatballs. We wanted to try something different and Robert had the chocolate almond cake which was good. The food at Ikea is extremely affordable and good.  
Next stop is the Half way point to KOA in Goodlettsville,Tenn which should be Knoxville,Tenn we start down thew road and guess what engine light on truck on again. Oh no!! I want to get on the road. We just drive and pray we can make it to the half way point and we do. We arrive around 7 at the Cracker Barrel and decide to spend the night there. Tomorrow has to get better. Christmas decorations were up in the area and it looked so beautiful but of course before we go in to eat we have to park again. This time you would think it would be easy its a drive in spot. No worries right. WRONG!  Another embarrassing moment. Back rear tires of trailer are going to hit sidewalk so I say reverse a little and then go forward but no the lessons the two men showed him at the last RV park didn’t take effect. Ok so I understand Robert can not hear and extra time and louder voices are necessary but seriously if you don’t understand ask and listen intently so you can get it the next time. Well he couldn’t figure it out and I told him to just drive over the sidewalk. I give up. I know now why partners who travel together sometimes only one comes back. Sorry not sorry! This is frustrating at times. I love my wonderful husband but please we need to figure this out. It is the only issue that I have almost sent him to the moon for. So now he goes over sidewalk I tell him to just go back around the Cracker Barrel parking lot and park in the rear just taking up like 10 spots I don’t care. We need to park I need food and then I need a case of wine!  We go into Cracker Barrel and eat some roast beef and ham great coffee and then back to the trailer for wine and bed. I am exhausted and it’s freezing. Of course no heat because we are not plugged in but Thankfully I have 4 heavy blankets and we are fine in bed snuggling. Good night and we will see you tomorrow. 

We left! We finally left. Wow, what an experience is just getting ready to pack up and finally leave town. We are so glad we took the advice of fellow RV travelers and practiced near home first on the adventures we would have.  We left Smithfield, NC from Hidden Haven RV park and it was a great new park with very clean bathrooms which of course was important to us because Robert had to gain the courage to clean out the black tank.  He has finally grown too the level of allowing me to use the bathroom. Yes Hallelujah Thank God for small miracles. So we leave town and as we are driving to make a quick stop at camping world in Garner for them to fix our TV the engine light on our truck goes on. What? Really God do you not want us to leave? What is going on now. So we drop our camper off at Camping World and then try calling diesel mechanics to take a look at our truck immediately. Yes sure that was easy because we all know the staffing issues are great right now. Ugh, but I am not giving up probably on the 10th call I call a place and they say bring it right in.  Feeling so relieved we get there and the mechanic is trying to figure it out and the only thing he could think of is the air filter which was filthy.  So he replaces that and bam engine light off.  I am feeling so Thankful for Buckys in Clayton, NC who got us back on the road. We drive back to Camping World who say our TV is broken. Well that’s a coincidence the tv worked right before you installed it and now its broken but whatever I just want to get on the road. Keep the TV.  We get on the road to the Carolina Pickers Festival being held in Denton, NC so exciting to finally be driving and knowing I’m not coming back for awhile. Well at least till January because I have to have surgery and then back on the road. 
We arrive in Denton, NC and of course there has to be something we can’t do right or shall I say Robert is having learning difficulty with. We have to back into our campsite. NO!! We don’t know how to do that. All I can do is laugh after about 30 minutes and with the help of 2 other wonderful RVers he gets it done.  I really need to have a video recording going next time he has to back because it won’t be the last.  I have faith though he will get it. Maybe after travels are over. So now we are parked and it is freezing. I am so cold I hate the cold. I do miss my Florida weather on these days. 
We wake up Thursday morning in the freezing raining cold to set up and after a while realize we just better call it a day and go back to the trailer for a hot shower. Friday will be better.  
The weekend was good after that we set up Friday and Saturday and had sales. Saturday was the best day but it did stay cold all weekend. 
Sunday morning we woke up and got on the road to Tennessee. I will share those adventures next. Go and make some adventures of your own.